Music is perhaps the only thing to be there, always.

It seems, I now minor in philosophy. The subject thrills me and at the same time frightens me to an absolute overwhelming.

Now I will attempt to achieve this degree and from there I truly don’t know which direction I will take.
I should have written more now but it is time to sleep. Perhaps I will update this particular post in the future.

Peace

Could you turn it off just for the weekend
Yeah I need this
The walls are bleeding other room’s secrets

Could you hold it off until we reason
Why we need this
These secrets’ answers you don’t wanna know…
(unfinished)

As if someone was watching, my favourite person I look up to writes out just what I needed to read in support of these changing times.

“… Perfection is illusory. The most spectacular of cars gets you from point A to point B no different than the most practical and inexpensive. The perfect male or female body is only as desirable as what it contains, no matter our initial sexual impulses. No matter how attractive something is, if it’s nature is ugly then no amount of wishful thinking can amend it… ” - MGood
Full Entry

I welcome change wtih open arms.

“Military interrogators posing as FBI agents at the U.S. detention center at Guantanamo Bay, Cuba, wrapped terrorism suspects in an Israeli flag and forced them to watch homosexual pornography under strobe lights during interrogation sessions that lasted as long as 18 hours, according to one of a batch of FBI memos released Thursday.” - Knight Ridder

Or perhaps rather, “Slow the extinction of the environment!“.

After all, our days consist of significantly less garment wear (and tear) than they used to.
At the end of some days, your shirt simply has not been spilled on, sweat in, or wrinkled up.

Turn it inside-out and hang it back up, will you? I won’t tell.

I am a no-body.
This might almost fall under a form of Cartesian thinking, but I always thought of Décarte’s Dualism as somewhat of a joke.
I will begin with a materialistic approach. I believe strongly in physics and science and that really we are entirely made up of these particles and atoms, molecules, and so on.
There are no two identicals in this realm. Any two compouds for example will always be in a different state of motion. Two elements will always differ in how their electrons are buzzing about.

These differences increase exponentially as the whole grows.

The wholes that physical particles create are splendid in their variety of size, shape, colour, and ability.
From pebbles to nebulas.

Something has occured though. Through the years of change and evolution of wholes, somehow has come about an Observer. The observer, as I understand it, is you and me. But it doesn’t end there. Any organism with the ability to receive stiumli and react must observe? Perhaps not.
Descartes argued that animals other than humans have a reflex for every stimuli but I find this to be slightly too simple.
No two human brains are the same
No two humans are alike.
So this has gone on too long and Ive lost site of where I was taking it and where I am in that process.
Basically- as much as the mind is probably totally physical, it is nonetheless a wonderous being that seems beyond physical properties, but not autonomous of them.

I have poisoned my mind with physical entities and it is time to free my mind of them.

Are a waste of time and money.
There is no method to winning more than you spend. Even $10, which lasts about 1minute at your average casino can be spent on a book or movie rental or museum admission or a concert, or wholy shit it seems anything that costs $10 is better than placing your crisp bill into a big black box that lights up for 2 seconds and then stops.
In fact, for about $10 you could build your own spinny-light show that would run for days.
Ive found my project for the rest of the reading week.

As tears rolled down her cheeks, I stood silent. For all her inner beauty, deepest eyes and rosey reds, I could not conjur up a word. I could not look into those eyes.
Apologies ran through my head, none of which seemed appropriate or possible of healing. Fleeting thoughts raced outwards from the archives of memories. I would like to hold those tight, and her, tighter.
Parallel lines of existance, so close and sometimes so strong, abruptly diverge.
I shouldn’t have picked her up. I shouldn’t have lied. I shouldn’t have been so foolish with a reality so brittle.
I hope this loss will bring about a better future. With these tears, change.
I have goals to realize beyond the high walls I have ignorantly built.

Health
Knowledge
Expression

A world without. A world within.

As I stood silently, searching for words, I found only one truth to all of this.

Time will tell.

Tuesday, day 2 of this week of reading.
Since my last exam I’ve:
-Drank
-Slept
-Watched a movie
-Drank
-Slept
-Worked on ma business
-Drank
-Slept

I see a reoccuring pattern here. Perhaps I should revise my values and aim to get some school work done at some point before classes recommense. I suppose I have done some work drawing outlines for my 3 upcoming essays, but to counteract that work with the amount of evenings of ‘Casual Forgetting’ that have perspired, I figure more work is in line!

Tonight, Paul is having a kegger.
Prior to that I work for a couple hours teaching my minions how to drum like harcorps (ohh pun) soldiers, which at least offers some light of productivity over this break.

Finally- if there are any talented and focused bass, piano or guitarists out there who would like to start a trio/quartet in the Ottawa area, look no further for a drummer. Cause allll I wanna do is rock, …I mean jazz… or maybe funk… calipso?

Peace

not caring to belong.

Looked like good pizza though.

Today I will write one more midterm and the Reading Week will begin. I hope I feel satisfied enough with the first half of this term to justify all the stupid shit Im sure I’ll get up to in the next week.

If anybody has any suggestions for Reading Week activities, please enlighten me. The only criteria are:
- They cost little
- They’re within two hours of my home.
- You take part!

Peaca

My buddy (blogless-Bashir) im’d me tonight at 10pm, to notify me that Pilate was playing a FREE show at Carleton’s Olivers!
FREE!!
SHOW!!
PILATE!!!!!

Naturally, we went. Jeff, however, didn’t. Why? WHY!!!

Anyways- the show was awesome. Being the 4th time Ive seen these guys (didn’t really realize that ’til now, heh), I can’t express the extent to which they provide high quality ROCK for the minimal Roll necessary…
Or perhaps it’s a quality of Roll for such unneccessary Rock? Who’s to say really.

All we can be sure of is simply this:

Pilate releases a new album in April. If you don’t own their first release, BUY IT.
If you do, BUY THE NEW ONE.

And if you ever have a chance to check them out live, do it- they are so mellow it weighs me up-

Peace